Everybody Change

Baca dari blog cikF=) telah membuatkan saya terfikir mengenai halatuju selepas ini. Yeah, she rite now hav gone through the pain and suffer.. Even though i submitted my final draft but still i’m not yet presenting. Their faculty is not like my faculty.. Faculty of ‘torturing like hell’ (hehe just kidding.. Always make your mind fade away with all sort of probability and never ending story..) Hope my name will not in the presenter list. Hope so much.. Those who present only have 2 possibility: whether you sucks (fail) or you are smart (got A for thesis).. Those in between are in safe zone for graduation..

Hey, my interview will be this Saturday 26 April 2008 at Gamuda Berhad.. Oh, i’m not even ready anything except bought some proper casual fit for PROFESSIONAL work/job.. Yeah PROFESSIONAL not professional.. Owh, i’m just hate to wear it.. Although i look handsome and smatter in that outfit (i’m not bluffing, haha), but still i hate it.. It make me have to change attitude, work culture and many other things too..  I wanna be a small kid, come on man… Be a small kid is the best thing.. Doesn’t have to be ‘naqib’, just be ‘anak usrah’. No need giv speeches/tazkirah but only hearing them.. Hehe.. Just imagine it.. I bet there are many people in our line love that.. Just take but not giving.. Oh cut the crap, back to the interview.. I wish i have perfect English communication and writing skills, then i talk to them like they are nothing.. Haha,, oh shit, don’t talk big (my bad) I pray that my interview will go smoothly and properly manner and attitude.. Hope you all also pray me for my successful for getting that job.. Oo Lord, there’s no other who can give me/others ‘rezeki’ but you. Guide me with Your bless and Your kindness.. Your the Almighty, Allahuakhbar..

This coming May will be my very ‘best ever friend for 5 years’ wedding. I have known her since the day they  came to UTM. Not her alone, but with cikF=), Fakaruddin, Paod and another person (that i’ve forget). She’s gonna end single status to married to her lover.. Well, nothing i can say much for their wedding.. I’m too small for giving advice to her. Eventually she already know how to be a smart and think alone. I’m not smart and great enough to give advice to her. But she one of my great friend i ever had.. One thing that make me so sad and so fed up is does life after marriage will change a lot.. I always feels like i hav lost another friend when they married.. Oh, i’m should happy for them but that what i’m thinking, i am really weirdo.. Oh don’t even thinking me of me jealous for their marriage.. That’s not the point..

Talk about those i just mentioned, among them i really luv 3 of them (EMi, cikF n Faka). I’m remember it clearly of those day, they were called ‘anak usrah’ and i’m the useless ‘naqib’ with my nostalgic proton saga 1.3 auto.. Until today, i feel like i have fail my obligation and resposibilities to them.. I always full of myself, not concern about them.. What a terrible guy i am.. Today, i’m very happy to hear they will grad, wedd and work. While the other side of me crying so loud, wish they forgive me.. Eventhough i’m g5 and you all g6, but you are my truly sisters and brother.. 5 years we have been together, 5 years we have known each other, 5 years we have high and down together and for 5 years God has make us like brother and sisters.

Huhu.. (^_^)

The time have changed, the world now change, and people too. And i write this because EVERYBODY CHANGES for goodness, for improvement, for happier life, for comfortable life, and most of my friend change because Allah.. May Allah guide them closer to You.

p/s: sometimes it just nice to be emo a little..